thought of the day 130719 做個local香港人

好了好了，是時候講些別的了




要不然真的是變態了



這些日子跟不少local港人聊



什麼來介定是local呢？



嗯..不知道，反正你會明白



從小到大，我對港人身分沒有很大的認同



就算沒去外國前，聽的都是英文跟國語歌，追星也只有外國人份



在外國也少跟港人混






而疏忽了自己其實也是個土生土長的港人



那天跟經理聊天說嘩我認識了個屋邨仔



他說有什麼奇怪，香港一半人都住在公屋



是喔，有什麼大驚小怪呢



是我自己有問題



都說認識了deedee後最大的得著就是眼界大開續漸的接受更多以前沒想過的事情



經理說你也是時候認識一下local人了



本來最自然的事突然間又變得有點挑戰



本來就在這城市長大，我不想再成為別人眼中那些從外國回來的人，而且我也回來夠久了，不可以因為這原因而自覺與眾不同



回想起我認識的韓國台灣男生好像比local男更多



用母語談情應該比用英文國語舒服自在吧還沒說共同的生活習慣呢



為什麼我過去可以忽略了這個市場？



這不是有病是什麼？



好，就從聽廣東歌開始！！！



今天聽了首很應景的情人A



oh no, 情人甲才對

thought of the day 130715 u're the craziest thing i'd ever done

事情沒有按劇本上演，他沒有從此消失

我又再跟他聯繫上了.....

你説生病了，所以沒有找我

見過面了我總叫有點安慰

至少沒有從此消失

感覺已變了但我還是回味那天我們不多的對話，感到他的一點關心

直到昨天突然從fb看到你的update....

說要離開香港....到外地工作

huh?!

有點晴天霹靂

從來沒有聽過你說

那也怪不得你，我們本來就不熟

哭了我整天

人世間的生離死別是最叫人傷心但又响往的事，這樣的結局總帶點淒美

如果問我為什麼那麼喜歡你的話

我只可以說coz u're the craziest thing i'd done in my life.....

一生人又可以瘋狂幾次呢，讓我再執迷不悔一下子吧

我整輩子都沒有向一個男生表白那麼多，又沒收到reply的

這樣不是發花癲是什麼

希望如你說的一樣we'll see again

ull always be this special person to me 

i will miss u like how i always do

thought of the day 130703 照妖鏡

你問我是不是受過傷所以不能接受愛,
我說沒有, 以前的每個對我都很好
我沒有說的是......
他們跟你一樣也是無聲無息的在毫無預兆下從我生命中離去
這樣算是受傷嗎
其實如果你們都跟我說聲為什麼要離開的話
我想這樣子我會好過一點
至少, 我知道出了甚麼問題,
下次注意一下, 而不是一而再的糊里糊塗的看著你們一個一個的離我而去
然後胡思亂想

不過你也提過一下, 說不喜歡我亂講話
對了, 細想一下, 我真的常亂講話
他這句話就像當頭棒喝一樣,
我知道我說話又直又harsh, 常傷害到人自己不知道,
其它人都常有跟我說這個問題,
不過因為以前不曾與男伴吵架,
我才以為他們喜歡我這樣直腸直肚, 欣賞我有個性
原來原來這只是我一廂情願的想法
事實上應該是因為之前的他們年紀比較大又成熟才不與我計較包容我
而不是覺得我這樣子可愛
所以我要謝謝你把我弄醒
跟你說過you are a very special person to me
是真的, 雖然只跟你出去兩次,
因為你會生氣, 所以教了我很多,
像面照妖鏡一樣
讓我看清自己不好的地方, 好好反省
也讓我開發了個新市場
原來跟年輕男生一齊真的能帶給我不一樣的快樂
也明白為什麼老男人都愛後生女了
以後不要被數字框住, 歡喜就好
yea

thought of the dat 130610 y cant things just work out for once?

舊人結婚去了

新人不理我了

都在今天

why cant things just work out for this once? 

thought of the day 29082012 i forgot

i forgot already when was the last time i lead a peaceful life
i forgot already when was the last time i was truly completely happy
i forgot already when was the last time i live without fear
i forgot already when was the last time i could sleep without having to worry being waken up in the middle of the night
i forgot i forgot i forget
when when when
will i be able to live one day, just one day without being yelled at
without having to worry that the phone will ring with the person screaming at the other end when i pick up
what is it which make life so miserable
what is it which causes so much pain n tears
i dunno i dunno i dun wanna know

thought of the day 120517 quote fm net buddy

winning the lottery n falling in love r things that shouldnt be anticipated in life

true, very true

thought of the day 120418 ok.....i'm officially a mad woman

ok....with whatever i wrote on the previous 2 entries
i guess i'm officially a mad woman now
talkin to a guy fd of mine abt this....
he's like....urgh....yea, that's pretty crazy that u're still sending birthday messages to a guy who obviously doesn't give a shit
and for 10 fucking YEARS!!! you better take it easy....
ya....i guess so....never really thought abt this is smth crazy until this year....
eventhough i'd always taken it as just a friendly gesture,
it's not like he's dead....and if he doesn't reply and for so many years...it probably means nothing else but just he doesn't want to see me anymore.....nothing of that confidence shit....me trying to get back in touch with him is just me being crazy......too focus on my own thoughts but not others
ok no more no more....
no more happy birthday or merry christmas messages.....
i'd be better off wasting all these efforts on all my current guys.....
then appearing like a mad woman in front of him n ppl who know him...
mad woman i am......
it's in the genes....