thought of the day 101231 the year of REALIZATION

this year is coming to an end......and yet again, i'm writing a blog to review....
it's been what....the third year or forth that i wrote a blog reviewing what i've done in the past year?
if 2009 is the year of change, then 2010 is the year of REALIZATION.....
yes, REALIZATION is the word
i'd come to realize that change doesn't last
i'd come to realize that both aging and relastionship doesn't really matter anymore....they will both come by without u noticing it (well, not when they're leaving though, they both hella hurt when they leave)
i guess i've become more mature....i've grown
i've realized that i am in another stage of womanhood.....
yes, being older might mean looking older and less fit...(hell yes....i obviously gained some weight and wrinkles this year)
but this doesn't make me less attractive....i kinda realize what drawn ppl to me.....
no need to worry about running out of supply
(hahahahahaha........diu.....i'm so 7, but actually, this isn't smth i should be proud of, who need those kind of supply anyways?)
work wise it has come to a bottle neck....
yes, i've changed to a new job....
yes, this is smth i've been looking for, no need to go to china no more, not too busy, working in an office with the view of victoria harbour, co workers not too hard to deal with...
but wat's next......am i all settled?
is this how much money i'm gonna make for the rest of my life?
thinking abt it.....it's not only my job that has come to a bottleneck....
my whole life is in a bottle neck.....i'm so stuck...
resolution for the new year???
god knows....staying alive perhaps?